Hello beautiful human,
I am Aman Kaur. A woman who is reshaping her world within and is here to help anyone looking to do the same.
For years, I carried suppressed emotions that settled deep inside me, until they spilled out as illness’s.
I functioned with three hours of sleep, night after night, occasionally bleeding digestive organs. Migraines that pulsed like a second heartbeat inside my skull. one very bland meal a day, carefully consumed while teetering on the edge of passing out. Abdominal pain – not for days, not for weeks but for years. surgery scars mapping my skin like silent witnesses. hormones thrown into dangerous chaos. And loud blasting music that filled my ears constantly because the voices in my head had become unbearable to face in silence.
very few knew what I was going through because I once told my story to someone who offered me no compassion. It shut me down further. I let a lot of people down during this long extremely painful period but thats not what hurt. what hurt was I had let myself down.
one night, at my lowest, I realized how faint my inner voice had become. In that stillness, it called out to me exhaustion evidently clear and thinking I have given chances to so many things, to so many people but never to myself. so I made the first positive decision in a long long time.
That night we both exhaled deeply. “Finally” she whispered. “finally” I replied.
Then slowly and steadily I learned to stand, then crawl, then walk and now I run.
I learned a lot, consumed a lot of knowledge not for the sake of becoming smarter or collecting knowledge but purely for survival.I have journeyed from emptiness into fullness. From indifference into fierce gratitude. From being lonely and a dangerously overwhelmed girl who felt everything too deeply to becoming a woman who wakes up with the widest smile and a mystical calmness anchored in her chest. Craziest part is the emotions I thought were too deep for my own good are what saved me, made me witness miracles, feel magic within my being.
In short: I am writing a beautiful story for myself. A story with every essential ingredient needed to tell a tale of a human life well lived. pain. heartbreak.failure but also: strength. love. compassion, tenderness and a fiercely kind and honest heart. still beating after all the chaos. still feeling.still becoming.
And if you have found your way here – welcome love. This isn’t a place for perfection. It’s a place for anyone learning how to carry their stories with grace.
I hope to become the voice that whispers words I wish someone had whispered to me. I didn’t encounter another Aman but you my friend, just did. so listen closely to the words of wisdom I share because my wisdom is hard earned, it doesn’t come from books. It comes from living through unimaginable pain.